I'm sure everyone gets it once in a while... or maybe not, if you're that self-assured. Either way, I'm definitely not a very self-assured person and get hit with this once in a while. Sometimes it's triggered by something and other times it's not.
It's more or less everything that I worry about in one go. I'm bombarded with a range of unhappy thoughts that leave me feeling like I just want to crawl under the covers and never surface. It's like getting hit by everything in my subconscious mind in one tidal wave.
It's thoughts like.. am I going to make enough for my trip to Japan? Why am I so restless? What's going to happen when IT happens? Why do I care so much? I shouldn't but I do. And every time someone talks to me about it or anything related to it then I get really bitter. Why can't I change this about them? What happens if I stop trying?
I figured that a good way to keep all these thoughts at bay is just to keep myself occupied. Having an event everyday gives me a purpose, a goal for the day. It's kinda a 'Get this done and you haven't wasted your day' thing. Looking at my calendar and seeing something written for everyday makes me feel like I'm a healthier person.
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